Wednesday 8 July 2015

Sent Letter.

Now that the truth is just like a day that you pass
It is better to live.
I don't need to hide anymore.
Come on. Go away.
Come out and let's play. Cause everything ends today.
I came and go like if it was the last time
I like it.

Do you feel the time going through you?
I do. I do feel it like never before.
When you touch me, it's like an explosion.
The energy coming out of me brakes all the windows around
It is good, isn't it? To emerge.
Sometimes you need to do it. I just didn't know I could.
Well now, it's time to enjoy.
Every moment is a life, you can live it or not.

You don't have much more time to spend here friend
Nobody has.
And as someone once told me, I now I tell you
You must live only your live for only one time.
So then, you'll can be satisfied.
Everything is just a dream, so why to take it
By that bad way?
No need to.

Look up for your time.
Since you were borned you are losing it.
And that is the only thing that will never come back.
Time.
Moments.
Life.
Life never comes back.
Live it while you do have.

Sunday 24 May 2015

   My Eyes Hurt

 

I don't want to start again
Because every stage is a hard one.
Since the sad song echoing through my ears
Until the last drop of my eyes
And I can't feel pain anymore
Not just for have loved.
You are like a gift, given to me by na angel
As beautiful as you.
The one that takes away my sorrows.
The one that they want to take away from me.
I don't want to get lost again
To come back to the swamp where you found me.
It was hard to live back then,
And now my happiness is being taken from me
By this cruel commendment that sorrounds us,
That sorrounds myself.
In front of them, I try to be Strong
But the ones that read my inside are here
With me, trying to keep me standing up.
I don't bear to be buried again
In this hole world, I can't find such as you
That brings me from sadness to this light.
I still haven't inure to smiles
But your smiles, they Wake my thoughts.
Warm my heart and do no harm
Only when you don't look at me.
My eyes hurt, I feel now prudent to close them.
And fall asleep again.

Sunday 26 April 2015

I Am Alive

I won't lie to myself. It's stupid.
There is still you somewhere inside of me.
But it's no longer something I can have
I can't do this do myself anymore.
Hurt me. Cut me. Kill me
I won't get into my hell again.
Because I know how difficult it was
Just to decide, that I would try to get out of it.
And only I do know
How it was when I just couldn't get out of it.
I just wish that you knew nobody is all alone.
As you Always said you were.
I found somewhere to hold. And the way of not falling again.
You may find it too. So you'll can survive.
I've turned into a blade. And there is nothing I can't pass through.
But I'm still thinking about what has become of you.
Because, although it was killing me,
How many times did I do everything to make you feel well?
My hell is still in here.
But I found someone who takes me out of it.
So now,
Where am I?
Everyone has a chance. Everyone can start again.
There, at this place, only one thing is beautiful.
Sadness. In the most pure sense of it.
You have to understand that I can't bear to go there
I can't come back there anymore.
I have dreams that save me.
I'm dreaming.
And I will never stop dreaming.
I live this way now. And this is how I wanna live
Forever.
I have so many things to live for.
I have a person to live for.
I have a person to think about.
And this person makes me see
I'm alive.


Each Other's

I knew I'd never overcome this the right way.
All that love is the biggest scar in my body.
The only scar left inside of me.
And I bet the biggest in you.
I never refused to try, not with you.
How many times have I runned ou of hope?
I know everything you did for me.
I feel lost. It's true.
I have all I need now. To be happy
Everything, suporting me, helping me. The situation
Still I feel this way not hearig anything from you.
How many times did I try being what you needed?
You teached me how to live sorrounded by nothing
How to live only and for you
And I did it. I lived for you and only for you all that time.
But don't you see how much it killed me?
That's what makes me see now what is to live for me.
How many times we did tore us apart?
I faild in letting it go, letting you go.
I just wake up some day, and you show up in my mind.
Then, that day becames cold, and I feel alone
That's something you teached me really well, to feel alone.
How many times did we feel like this?
I got into the deepest hole that day.
Only one person could take me out of there.
And that made me see the light the no more existed
And I see it every day.
The life is not only what I sow. What you still see.
I want you to see it. I need you to save yourself.
How many times did I try to save you?
How many times did we save each other?
How many times did we neend each other?
How many times did we try not to be apart?
How many times did we cry because of us?
How many times did we hurt each other?
How many times did we kill, piece by piece
Each other's heart?
So many. So many times.

Monday 6 April 2015

Inhospitable Memories


When something happends around you
Something that makes you recover all that inhospitable memories.
It reminds you of a time not long ago
Where youre dreams were killed
Where they buried you alive in some empty hollow.
The memories, they come like the fire.
You cannot run from that memories,
You cannot get rid of it.
They all surround you in the most terrifying way.
The way you feel. The way it makes you feel like.
I run from it. I'm running from it.
Still the weight is attached to my shoulders.
They say, and scream, and bring me reasons
Reasons that would make me free.
I am free. Still I'm not free at all.
I may now do as I want. As I need. As I Always needed.
You broke my heart. You killed me.
Now your memories stab me in my back as your love did.
The memories of that morbid love come alive
A love that left so many, so many scars
That you doubt if the will ever go away.
I still wonder to myself. As more that I wonder
More I feel the answer will be no.
It should not have been this way. Still
it could not be another way.
This deagraded history
It seams like it'll never come to na end.
But there is an only road
And I'm following it.
I'll follow it untill the end of this pain.

Sunday 8 March 2015

Let's Get it On

É isso que você deseja, e sabe bem disso.
Sinta a liberdade, a felicidade
O ar que já não era mais respirado há tanto, tanto tempo.
Não farei novamente. Não verei de novo.
Tudo que se passa, bom ou ruim,
Sempre terá serventia.
Esse é o segredo.
O bem vem para um bem. O mal também.
Aprenda.
Sempre tão fácil falar, e difícil fazer.
Não, eu não permito que seja difícil.
Sua aparência é mudada, sempre 
A essência que você carrega, não.
Como aquela árvore na encosta
Que no outono perdeu todas as suas folhas.
Livre-se de sua bagagem. O passado.
O arrependimento e remorso corroem.
Como ninguém.
Seja fraco. Sofra. Chore. Exploda.
Destrua o mundo. Para construí-lo de novo.
Procurando vícios, distrações. Não é necessário.
Só é preciso enxergar. Você olha, mas não vê.
Let's get it on.
Sem perceber, você se liberta
E só muito tempo depois, deixa que as amarras caiam.
Não cometa o mesmo erro novamente
Não se pode encher um copo que já está cheio.
Sinta-se novo. Sinta-se novo.
E de novo, e de novo.
Respire fundo. Percebo tudo ao meu redor.
Toda beleza que você não podia ver
Enquanto uma luz forte o cegava.
Quando você era escravo de si mesmo.
Redenção, meu caro. Há para todos.
As linhas escritas de um livro
Tão bonito como uma noite de ciméria personalidade.
Seus sentidos aguçados, para cada movimento.
Dessa vez é diferente. Nunca havia sido.
Sensações de primeira viagem.
Sinto-me derrubado no chão. Sorrindo
Como nunca sorri
Há muito mais na vida.
Muito mais do que você vive. Ou pensa viver.
Saia das sombras e deixe que elas preencham você por inteiro.
De um lado a outro do seu ser, agora não mais oco.
Você, finalmente, não está mais vazio.
Duro reconhecer, se conhecer.
Como num juramento.
A noite te toma por inteiro. Outro ser.
O aroma reconhecido a qualquer custo
Na mais pútrida alcova.
Assisto-me dançando.
Contorça-se. Vá em frente. Não olhe para trás.
Nunca mais se atreva a olhar para trás.
Simplesmente ouça, toque.
E então os deuses te observam
Enquanto o vento sopra seus cabelos.
Nada sutil.
Não mais.
E esse é o sabor da liberdade. Não tenha fronteiras.
Não tenha fim. Seja o ser incompleto.
Sempre sendo preenchido de tudo, por tudo.
Você não será mais cobrado
Tudo lhe pertence agora.
Dono de tudo.
Crie o mundo a sua volta.
Se desprendendo de tudo como nunca antes você viu.
Não julgue, não culpe.
Você é dono de si agora.
E só depende de você.
Seu entorno.
Sua companhia.
Sua mente.
Lembre-se.
Salve-o de si mesmo.
Só você pode se salvar.
Only you can save yourself.
Everything depends on you, my brother.

Friday 20 February 2015

Wrong Chemistry

And then, you hear the song of it. Again.
You could not see it coming
So, all of a sudden
You brake.
You fall to he floor, yes you fall to fast.
You don't really want to suffer
It could not be.
When you realize all that is lost,
All that you always saw getting lost.
Sadness. Anguish. Prision.
You have a choice now.
You didn't have it before.
I know. But instead of planning the future,
Your past, it does not leave you.
An empty chest, such deep sacars.
It won't leave you. I see you trying.
I've been Strong, I've been trying so hard,
But not for much longer.
My walls are braking.
 You have broken my walls for such a long time.
Memories from another life haunt me.
They hit me on my face.
You've Always been through so much, darling
The time is close now.
I'm weak, too weak for all that.
I don't have him to save me anymore. He left.
All that vanished.
Like the moon of every night that we shared
It was not supposed to be this tough,
It could not be.
I am going alone, and for now
Making it on my own.
They try to help me. No one does it really.
The silence kills. The music suffocates me.
So where did we go in the end?
Thoughts of what could have been
Of everything. Thoughts of everyday.
You wonder why forever? Why always forever?
Why the craving for living?
Why the craving for surviving?
I want something. I cannot have it.
It should have stopped me.
I'd rather yes.
Wrong, wrong chemistry.

Wednesday 18 February 2015

 

Desmoronar Enfim

Diga-me como é quando as lágrimas secam
Quando os gritos já não mais soam
E então, o que permanece?
O mundo sempre muda, eles dizem
E se eu permanecer?
O que será, se eu destruir?
Se contra tudo e todos eu me puser?
Já não era sem tempo.
Eu não podia mais esperar.
Não poderia perder mais nada,
Porque já tudo havia se perdido.
E esse ponto é sua natureza!
Quando não se há mais o que perder,
Quando não há mais algo que se queira ganhar
E quando assim, tanto já se passou,
Que não importa mais o que virá
A destruição me muda.
A destruição me fortalece
Nos sentidos mais longínquos e puros de minh'alma
E aí não há mais solução.
Chego ao ponto sem volta.
Daí em diante, somente caminhar se pode
Não sinto, não ligo, nem espero ou tento.
Sem motivo, sem fala, sem ouvir.
Sem direção
Quando tudo então se vai, e tu permaneces.
Quando não há coisa que se possa fazer
E quando chegares lá
Não se desespere
Não se angustie.
Faça o que tiver que ser feito,
Não importando o que seja.
Caminhe. Não pare.
Não existem mais arrependimentos agora
Tudo se desmorona
E tudo se vai.
Nada mais nos atinge
Nada chega até nós, não há influências.
Somente o céu, a paisagem e o vento.
Como eu houve de chegar aqui, me pergunto.
Tampo os ouvidos
Para escutar o que flui através de meu ser
Posso ouvir.
Depois que tudo se foi.
Alto e claro.
Sem mais preocupações
Sem distinções.
Nada consegue me afetar.
Não mais é fraca a minha natureza.
Tudo se acaba.
Se foi então, que seja
Desmoronou enfim.
E também eu me fui.
Não sou mais o mesmo alguém.
E eu desmorono em mim
Dentro, fora de mim.
Então no fim, que tanto se espera
Assim se faz
E sinto-me desmoronar, enfim.


Tuesday 17 February 2015

The Raven 
             Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary,
         Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore—
       While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
        As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
       “’Tis some visitor,” I muttered, “tapping at my chamber door—
                   Only this and nothing more.”
 
           Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December;
       And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
           Eagerly I wished the morrow;—vainly I had sought to borrow
           From my books surcease of sorrow—sorrow for the lost Lenore—
       For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore—
                   Nameless here for evermore.
 
          And the silken, sad, uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
       Thrilled me—filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
           So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
           “’Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door—
       Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door;—
                   This it is and nothing more.”
 
           Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
       “Sir,” said I, “or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
           But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
           And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
         That I scarce was sure I heard you”—here I opened wide the door;—
                     Darkness there and nothing more.
 
          Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
       Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before;
           But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
          And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, “Lenore?”
       This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, “Lenore!”—
                   Merely this and nothing more.
 
           Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
       Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
           “Surely,” said I, “surely that is something at my window lattice;
             Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore—
         Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore;—
                     ’Tis the wind and nothing more!”
 
          Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
       In there stepped a stately Raven of the saintly days of yore;
           Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
           But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door—
       Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door—
                   Perched, and sat, and nothing more.
 
       Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
       By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
        “Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,” I said, “art sure no craven,
        Ghastly grim and ancient Raven wandering from the Nightly shore—
         Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night’s Plutonian shore!”
                     Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
 
          Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
       Though its answer little meaning—little relevancy bore;
      For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
           Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door—
       Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
                   With such name as “Nevermore.”
 
           But the Raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only
       That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
           Nothing farther then he uttered—not a feather then he fluttered—
           Till I scarcely more than muttered “Other friends have flown before—
       On the morrow he will leave me, as my Hopes have flown before.”
                   Then the bird said “Nevermore.”
 
           Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
       “Doubtless,” said I, “what it utters is its only stock and store
           Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster
           Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore—
       Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore
                   Of ‘Never—nevermore’.”
 
           But the Raven still beguiling all my fancy into smiling,
       Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door;
           Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
           Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore—
       What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
                   Meant in croaking “Nevermore.”
 
           This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
       To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom’s core;
           This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
          On the cushion’s velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o’er,
       But whose velvet-violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o’er,
                   She shall press, ah, nevermore!
 
           Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
       Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
           “Wretch,” I cried, “thy God hath lent thee—by these angels he hath sent thee
           Respite—respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore;
       Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!”
                   Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
 
           “Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil!—prophet still, if bird or devil!—
       Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
           Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted—
          On this home by Horror haunted—tell me truly, I implore—
         Is there—is there balm in Gilead?—tell me—tell me, I implore!”
                   Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
 
           “Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil!—prophet still, if bird or devil!
       By that Heaven that bends above us—by that God we both adore—
          Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
           It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore—
       Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore.”
                   Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
 
           “Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!” I shrieked, upstarting—
       “Get thee back into the tempest and the Night’s Plutonian shore!
           Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
           Leave my loneliness unbroken!—quit the bust above my door!
       Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!”
                   Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.”
 
           And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
       On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
           And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon’s that is dreaming,
           And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
       And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
                   Shall be lifted—nevermore! 
 - By EDGAR ALLAN POE