I Am Alive

I won't lie to myself. It's stupid.

There is still you somewhere inside of me.

But it's no longer something I can have

I can't do this do myself anymore.

Hurt me. Cut me. Kill me

I won't get into my hell again.

Because I know how difficult it was

Just to decide, that I would try to get out of it.

And only I do know

How it was when I just couldn't get out of it.

I just wish that you knew nobody is all alone.

As you Always said you were.

I found somewhere to hold. And the way of not falling again.

You may find it too. So you'll can survive.

I've turned into a blade. And there is nothing I can't pass through.

But I'm still thinking about what has become of you.

Because, although it was killing me,

How many times did I do everything to make you feel well?

My hell is still in here.

But I found someone who takes me out of it.

So now,

Where am I?

Everyone has a chance. Everyone can start again.

There, at this place, only one thing is beautiful.

Sadness. In the most pure sense of it.

You have to understand that I can't bear to go there

I can't come back there anymore.

I have dreams that save me.

I'm dreaming.

And I will never stop dreaming.

I live this way now. And this is how I wanna live

Forever.

I have so many things to live for.

I have a person to live for.

I have a person to think about.

And this person makes me see

I'm alive.