Namesake

I feel myself being teared apart

By every step and every hour

I feel their hands pulling me down

This lugubrious place is who I am

And I cannot cut my roots

Despite all clues and shivers

That I feel behind my back

Inside I get to do my own paintings of myself.

And I drank it until the last

Drop of what I became in this past years

I drowned myself into the fresh poison

And abandoned all the ignorance

That keeps us safe from the world's

Creepy illusions

This heady illusions that kill

Every namesake within.

Do all who discover the stanchions

Of loneliness

Became alone?

The remote challenges of existing

This heavy burden that lies

Inside the soul

The pervasive but still subtle

Touch of solitude

I only embrace the shade that carries me.

Illness

I can´t free myself from this touch

Feeling so deadly
Shining upon my eyes
Making me blind
It’s bringing Death into my heart

 

But I left so long ago

If I cannot survive the depths

In this river of illness
I have one last bullet
Just let me know when it´s time

 
Prove to myself that I can resist
But for thousands of years
That I´ve been around
It tastes so shameless
That I felt down
 

Yet I left so long ago

If I cannot survive the depths
In this river of illness
I have one last bullet
Just let me know when it´s time
 

The pain heats me like the floor

When I let my body down
Intrinsic pieces of myself
They´re all long gone
The hemorrhage of my existence
My whole self undone

If I cannot survive, Just let me know.