Namesake

I feel myself being teared apart

By every step and every hour

I feel their hands pulling me down

This lugubrious place is who I am

And I cannot cut my roots

Despite all clues and shivers

That I feel behind my back

Inside I get to do my own paintings of myself.

And I drank it until the last

Drop of what I became in this past years

I drowned myself into the fresh poison

And abandoned all the ignorance

That keeps us safe from the world's

Creepy illusions

This heady illusions that kill

Every namesake within.

Do all who discover the stanchions

Of loneliness

Became alone?

The remote challenges of existing

This heavy burden that lies

Inside the soul

The pervasive but still subtle

Touch of solitude

I only embrace the shade that carries me.

Illness

I can´t free myself from this touch

Feeling so deadly
Shining upon my eyes
Making me blind
It’s bringing Death into my heart

 

But I left so long ago

If I cannot survive the depths

In this river of illness
I have one last bullet
Just let me know when it´s time

 
Prove to myself that I can resist
But for thousands of years
That I´ve been around
It tastes so shameless
That I felt down
 

Yet I left so long ago

If I cannot survive the depths
In this river of illness
I have one last bullet
Just let me know when it´s time
 

The pain heats me like the floor

When I let my body down
Intrinsic pieces of myself
They´re all long gone
The hemorrhage of my existence
My whole self undone

If I cannot survive, Just let me know.

Blue Light

As I close my eyes, your face is in my mind

I can still smell your body, from the dark corner of the bed

Looking in your eyes as the roll over

In this blue light now, we roll over

I can`t stop touching you, for my body craves at every instant

To have you back in my bosom

I can`t get tired of your sheets

Where we move as we please

I get lost in your ways, In these crazy days

As sweat and pleasure flow through our flesh

All my senses get daze, I`m high

Heavy breaths, as your smell makes me even more inebriated

We are so full of blood and desire

I couldn’t be that wrong

Could it?

Inquietud.

In the depths own my own self I feel that burn again

Sorely consuming me, living flames

By this fire I bled

All my soul I spread

There’s so much around, I can’t even recognize

The hands covering my scars

I feel this thirsty into my bones

It’s pulling me up to this abyss

Such a violently charming abyss

Gets me lost in all of this

Gets me dirt inside of it

I’m been incinerated by my psyche’s desire

Enforce me, take it all from me

 I beg you.

  Incomplete

Don't go away from me

Cause I'm lost and scared without you

Even with the thought of being without you.

Hold me while I fall to the ground with great pain in my chest, and a deep mess in my head

Because while I walk, my steps are turned to you.

In these misunderstandings, you've always been the pressure that keeps me in my safe room, in my place, in my land.

Reach for my love as you've always done before.

Completing myself in this sea of incomplete ones.

I'm braking down, I'm stuck inside all of this

I live, and I wait.

Far away from my fault. Far away from my mind. Far away from me. Cause I can't stand my ideas right now. 

I swear that if I could ever choose, I'd go away from you. Let you far away from the harm that I do. But I wouldn't stand that

I can't even try

I wanted so much to be at your side 
I want you to love me.
Please, believe me.
 
I broke my own heart and killed myself.
And I won't handle
To hurt
To brake
To lose you.
I need you.